I often find myself thinking and decided that my thoughts could be written on paper, and time and time again the same question repeats in my head: what strange feeling has led me to be submissive? A question that has been on my mind since forever. Now I'm 42 years old and this question has been with me since I was a child, at a young age I discovered a strange feeling in me, boys my age would look at women as an object of desire in bed where they would have the wildest sex, other boys would imagine or fantasize about the most unimaginable positions or acts with the most beautiful women in the universe, my head fantasized about other feelings, being dominated by a man, I didn't need to have sex with a man to fulfill my fantasy, my fantasy was and is being dominated by a man, feeling inferior or superior to the man I'm with, knowing that he has the power and control over me, that he can ask me anything he wants and that I must obey, knowing that I'm his sexual object and I must please him and of course knowing that he can inflict pain on me if he desires.

I don't consider myself a masochistic person, I like pain when I know it's being inflicted by a man who is sexually enjoying it, if you ask me if I like sadomasochism, I answer no.

During my adolescence and also during my youth, this feeling grew, my fantasies over time settled my preferences and tastes, when someone likes something, they think about it, look for things about it, want to see things about it, my fantasies have made me have no doubt about my submissive tastes.

As the years passed, I knew with certainty what attracted me, Domination - submission, I delved into this world of domination, but everything was fantasies, I didn't know what feelings a submissive could feel when being dominated, I wanted to know what it feels like to give your body and mind to a man, as some of you may know, it's sad to feel submissive and not be able to be dominated, not have the opportunity to demonstrate your submission to another person, for this reason, the time had come to have my first real experience with a dominant man.

We all remember our first contact with sex, an experience that we don't forget, for better or for worse, a submissive or dominant person can have the pleasure of having two memories, the memory of the first time they made love with another person and the memory of the first time they surrendered to domination - submission, both memories will always have a space in my heart and a moment to remember.

In my first "sadomasochistic" experience, I was able to know feelings that I had never had before, I felt that my body belonged to another person, kneeling at the feet of my master, I could verify that this was what I had always wanted, his feet were a desire that I had to take care of with all my sweetness and softness, I felt the need to please my master, I was delivered in body and soul to him, I felt the need to obey his orders. Tied up in f...