"Everything you love will probably be lost, but eventually, love will return in another way."

Franz Kafka

(1980-1981) I don't recall when I started jerking off, but I do remember that when I was 15-16 years old, I went to my best friend Juan's apartment. We always hung out on Saturday afternoons, and when I arrived, he opened the door and, with great mystery, asked me to hurry to his room. His parents had gone out to dinner, and we were alone, but even so, he closed the door to his room, fearing we'd get caught doing something bad.

"Look what I found in my parents' room."

He handed me a magazine, and just the cover alone impacted me - a blonde woman with her breasts exposed, looking at me with lust, covering her pussy with one hand while inserting two fingers into her mouth with the other. I opened it and browsed through it, seeing different women in various positions with different men.

"What do you think?"

"I'm getting a hard-on, she's really hot, the one on the cover. Can I take the magazine and return it to you tomorrow?"

"I don't think so, I have to put it back where I found it before my parents arrive."

"What a shame, I'd jerk off looking at it."

"Why don't we do it together now?"

"How?"

"Yes, I've already done it once, but looking at you is making me hard again."

I got nervous, on the one hand, I was excited since I had a good erection, but on the other hand, I had never masturbated in front of someone else. It had always been at night, in the intimacy of my room, with no one watching. I suppose he saw my indecision and told me.

"Come on, don't be shy, we've seen each other's dicks in the locker room. Let's just pull down our pants and that's it."

"Okay"

We both pulled down our pants and were left in our underwear. We both had erections, although Juan's was more noticeable than mine.

"Come on, now the underwear."

Before I could react, we both had our underwear down. My first impulse was to cover my dick and balls, but I saw my friend go straight to the magazine, ignoring me, and sit on the bed, starting to masturbate without paying much attention to me. I sat next to him and watched as he masturbated compulsively, as if his life depended on it. He put the magazine between us, and when I saw it, I focused on Juan's dick. I had never seen it hard before; we had showered together in the locker room, and playing, we had compared our dicks, and they weren't that different when they were flaccid. But now, seeing my friend's hard dick, I saw there was a big difference between us - mine barely reached 10 cm, and his seemed to be over 14-15 cm. It was also noticeably thicker than mine. I started to masturbate to Juan's rhythm, a rhythm I wasn't used to, as I usually went slower. I didn't take long, and in a matter of a couple of minutes, I came, but seeing my friend still going at his frantic pace,...