More than a story, I'd say this is a confessional about the things I've done regarding my discovery in the gay and BDSM world, trying to go in chronological order. Everything listed is 100% real, and it's my way of releasing what I've kept hidden for so long with some fear of telling the truth.

- I started in gay chats around 15-16 years old. I got a thrill from exhibiting myself on camera for strangers to see me naked and give me orders. Almost always, those orders were to masturbate or insert things into my ass.

- My first sexual experience was at 18 with a guy in his thirties who lived near me and whom I met through a gay chat. He was a bit shorter than me, dark-skinned, and muscular. I was already 1.72 meters tall and weighed around 60 kg, and I was very pale. At his house, I let him undress me, kiss me, suck his cock, and fuck me without a condom until he ejaculated inside my rectum. At first, it hurt, but he was patient and dilated and lubricated me well. The good thing is that his penis wasn't too big. I was very scared, but I enjoyed it. The only thing I regret is not using a condom, but luckily, I didn't get infected with anything. I met up with him a couple more times.

- From 19 to 25, I lived near a fairly large forest. I enjoyed going there frequently, usually on weekends (under the excuse of wanting to ride my bike). There, I would look for areas that were hard to access so I could walk around naked and masturbate. I also liked taking pictures of myself naked in nature. There were times when I went for a 30-minute jog wearing only sneakers (walking barefoot in a forest is very uncomfortable, with stones and thorns getting stuck in your feet). I also rode my bike through the forest trails while naked. One time, I couldn't find where I had hidden my clothes, and it was getting dark, so I panicked and got more anxious than ever until, after an hour, I found my clothes and felt the relief of being dressed again.

- Continuing with the forest, one time I encountered some horses that were roaming free with no one around. I approached them slowly so as not to scare them, and when one of the foals let me pet it, I undressed in front of it to see how it would react. The foal started smelling my penis and even gave it a lick. I was very excited that time, but I didn't go any further. I never found the horses again. In one part of the forest, I found a natural pool formed by the rains. I bathed there several times and covered myself completely in mud. I even invited two acquaintances from social media to meet up there, and we had a mud-wrestling match while the third person recorded it. I lost, so my punishment was to receive spankings and then be tied to a tree.

- In that same area, I once went with a man in his fifties who made me train naked like a soldier, doing push-ups, squats, receiving punches to the stomach, and acting like a dog. There was another man in his sixties who went with me to the f...