The final step (real)

I just broke up with my girlfriend. Of course it hurts, but I am convinced that a stage is opening up for me that will almost certainly lead me to start a life of total slavery, TPE, 24/7. It's something I feel, something I have always felt was going to happen to me. It's my destiny. My girlfriend knew what I am. We had an open relationship and between us we maintained vanilla sex, but the relationship with her limited the type of slave relationship that I established.

Basically, for some years now I have been used by two MASTERS. Both are extremely sadistic. For some reason, sadistic and cruel Masters have a special power over me and sweep away my limits. However hard and extreme what they do to me may be, and even if I leave the session crying and swearing never to allow it again, the following week I am already needing to be used again. It's something I can't avoid.

One of the MASTERS uses me every Monday night in a hotel in Belgrano that I must religiously pay for. If I can't go one Monday, I will be fatally punished. That's the rule. Of course I try not to miss it, but a few times it's impossible for me to go, usually for serious work or family reasons. Those are the worst moments for me. As I said, the MASTER is very sadistic. His punishments are the kind you never forget. Simple. Tied hand and foot to the bed, face down. With a belt. It can last 30 minutes or maybe 45. There is nothing I can do to stop it, not even for 5 minutes. He gags me with a gag that has a rubber dildo that reaches my throat and completely muffles my screams. Blow after blow after blow... Infinitely. It always, absolutely breaks me, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I would do anything to avoid having to endure another punishment like that. In fact, even though it may seem morbid, I have to admit that those punishments have made me a much better slave and much more obedient. "An obedient body is a body covered in bruises," the MASTER always says.

This MASTER lives in General Rodríguez, in the countryside, and for years now he has been insisting that I leave my girlfriend, that I stop "milking Males" (as he says), that I assume what I am and give myself completely to HIM. He talks a lot about 24/7 and TPE. I have learned a lot from HIM, especially about what I am and what I was born to be. HE says that only the complete destruction of my ego and my will will allow me to find my inner peace. HE has two more slaves and several friends Masters or Alphas. I have served some of Them.

The other MASTER who uses me, uses me to emotionally and sexually unload. He doesn't have a routine for using me. When he calls me, it's for me to go immediately to where he indicates, usually HIS house, no matter what I'm doing. He lives very close to my house and also to the office where I work. I try to always be available for HIM. He demands absolute availability. It's always short time. A blowjob. Two or three if he's with friends. Never more than an hour. Generally much less. Just enough to "unload with the cocksucker," as he says. He knows there's another MASTER who uses me every Monday and he would never avoid that. To HIM I'm garbage and he makes sure I understand that. I have always been the object of strong humiliations and have generally become accustomed to needing to be humiliated and even degraded, but this MASTER has deepened my emotional masochism to such an extent that I know it has been the deciding factor in the breakup with my girlfriend and perhaps also in the final step towards my enslavement, which I know is about to happen.

I have learned to accept what I am. I find huge fulfillment when they use me and override my cultural resistances, prejudices, and limits, leaving me in a pitiful and totally vulnerable state to everything. At that moment it's just me, without any masks, without having to pretend anything, in front of those MASTERS who have used and abused me, because they have that right over me. I am ready for the final step.